July 6th 3 AM I wake up suddenly from a deep sleep. I felt something funny when I
turned over, I go to the restroom very sleepy and I feel it again. I’m thinking to myself
weird and ew she must be pushing her little feet into my bladder? I shake it off and go
to get back in bed or not.. Again I feel it, at this point I am getting a little concerned
something may be wrong. I tell Nic in a calm voice “I think my water broke .”. He replies
by jumping out of bed asking me “are you sure you didn’t pee your pants?” We both
pause and realize my pants are a funny color. By now we are both wondering what in
the world is going on. Nic is insisting we now go in however me knowing it was not time
was trying to avoid it as long as I could and to keep the idea going of the wetting the
bed. I had an idea I would call the on call Dr in labor and delivery and explain to him
what was going on and he would tell me the baby kicked my bladder and the funny
color was from my vitamins or asparagus or something. His phone rings and I get his
voicemail so I leave a brief message and expect him to call me in the next few hours.
Wrong he calls back within a few minutes and tells me the opposite of what I knew he
was going to tell me ” it definitely sounds like your water broke and we need you to
come in right now if your water is green that means your baby has meconium .” For
those of you who do not know what that means it means that she had a BM inside of
me. I hang up in disbelief . We were to ready, SHE was not ready, our bags are not
packed her nursery is not done my freezer meals weren’t ready..no this is not real. I go
brush my teeth and clip my nails..yes I did. I had never felt so panicked yet so calm at
the same time it was the strangest feeling. It was like I was trying to avoid what was
happening all I was thinking was I am sure the Dr is wrong but if I am going to be
meeting my Daughter I need well-groomed nails I can’t have germy long nails when I
hold her. Nic pulls me out of the bathroom and asks me what we need to pack and I tell
him a tiny list of things that included the camera, socks, the toiletries I did have ready
and that’s it. I couldn’t think clear enough to tell him the things I knew we were
missing .
On the way to the hospital Nic held my hand tightly and we drove safely not like you
see in movies we weren’t speeding or blowing stop signs. We didn’t talk much, I think
both of our minds were going 100000 miles an hour. I was wondering if I would get to
bring her home with me or if she would need to stay . I tried my best to keep that out of
my head but it kept creeping back into my thoughts. Nic kept telling me she was going
to be fine and not to worry.. When does a man telling a woman not to worry ever
work?
We arrive and as soon as we are walking up to the door I felt my water break more and
I knew that this was the real deal we would see our sweet angels face within the next
few hours. There was no more denying that.
